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Friday, June 26, 2009

I started yesterday for my home to attend a marriage back here...many things happened on the way.. i thought to write them in some chronological order.. but not today thought to write that in some time...but when i came home then i got some shocking news and some updates which I expected to hear well before...

My mom had High Blood Pressure problem and she was admit in hospital for 3 days.... no body informed for that... then after that my dad met an accident and again am not informed... Now I am feeling bit different, I don't know why they didn't told me about that. Those two things now people are say were real serious and critical but why then nobody informed me. I am now not able to understand the seriousness of the situation now... and what should I do... how should i react to this. I am not that bad dad....

I am not feeling bad and am feeling bad for that that am not feeling bad for this.... Damn !!!! am not suppose to write a blog here when am on vacation and attending a marriage.. but these things made me to think what I am and why I am like writing this blog !!!!!

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Amdocs A year back...A year Now

Today June 16, 2009 I completed one year in my current organization and it was successful one year... with some Hiccups. Yesterday I planned to go office on this day to enjoy my work... but hell from yesterday I am having Back Ache and it is muscle sprain... I barely sit for more than ten minute, I have applied some spray and doctor told me to take complete rest.
Ahem.... Now about my work life in Amdocs (My Current Organization where I work in its India Office), Here I met many people in last one year... Worked on various projects and faced heat in work shit... will not discuss about projects in detail as per company Policy. Will talk about some people whom I met... whom I liked, I came across and I admired.
On June 16th 2008 I met one person who is not head but we can see he only working of operations department Mr. Prasad Bhutada... he explained us about some company policies and the facilities... all other details which company operations team discuss at the time of induction... I thought not include this part in my post but when I look back I cannot exclude Mr. Bhutada’s part in my last one year... I was in touch with him if not say on regular basis but weekly and we communicated a lot... he might be communicating hundreds of many people on daily basis so he might not remember my name but that is fine... He is an ex Army man and he manages operations very well.

Once the induction was over I was allocated the project and asked to meet my manager, so search for his location started... in Amdocs as it is a big organisation there are some you can say naming convention followed, each floor is divided in three wings north, south and central.. and based on floor there numbering is set like if it is S-1 which means south wing first floor.So I searched for my location and met my first manager there.
Enough discussing these all.. so I met my first team mates then and got some kind of KT... as I working Software Automation Testing and Having experience in HP QuickTest Professional, a Function Regression testing tool for Software test Automation from HP. So I took a little longer to understand the applications and to implement the automation...that is what I was said in one quarterly review...Finally I showed them one automation code after some time and it was something substantial... By the time things were moving out... and I was moved out to another project... I missed my first project people and loved to stay with them... Before moving out We had one project event...and we all went to pavankhind a place near to ratnagiri... as it was monsoon that time and it was awesome experience... i enjoyed that a lot and it was my one of good lifetime memory which I will cherish always !!!
In my second project I met few people whom I was not met before and by this time I was knowing many people... as I was part of Amdocs Community service and become an active member... In new project I could see more people like me who are working on same tool which am working on and I didn’t felt alien there... But I usually going to meet my old team mates as it took time to grasp that now I moved to new project... I have Move-On
Slowly with time I stopped going to meet my old team and was busy with new work and new team members... then came the blow on me that am not good at my work and I was asked to perform else go home.. I was say upset because I knew I didn’t do any wrong or ill thing.. I was simply blamed because of ill management... So I took the challenge and worked Hard to prove myself... In that transition period some people really helped me and came as mentor to me...I thank them all.

I think what helped me alot was my attitude... people found my attitude as blunt and straight forward... I speak for things straight not wrapped in some flourishing words which satisfies some ones false ego... It helped me as well as took its toll...Finally I was through that phase and came out successfully. In that time all the current team members helped me a lot... I thank them all.
By this time I was gone through turbulence at professional as personal front... At professional front people helped me a lot and at personal I helped myself... started this blog... I was in process of making antibodies for my mind and heart... and I don’t know how much am successful at the point... but still I feel don’t know what when things happen... I mean... virtually it is like it was not for me from first place... but then what was it... I couldn’t understand...
Now am in some another project... yes in less than a year I was moved through three projects and Moved-On... Phew!!! By this time I had my lessons learnt in life and now I act in office which I hate to... but now I see myself as a an artist who has to perform onscreen and has one different life altogether outside... I have learnt my Corporate lessons and trying to implement them.
I met many people in last one year in Amdocs... few of them I would like to mention are Prasad, Mangesh kale(My first manager), sachin, Indranil (aka ID), Siddhartha (aka SID), Rajesh, Arvind( mentioned earlier..he was one of the mentor for me and helped me a lot), manoj(another mentor), Sejal , Aparna, Parashar, kaustubh (yeah I missed one part that I am part of Amdocs trekking group, he is one of the organiser and Nice guy).... there are many more... rather whole Amdocs as people used to say (okay tease me ) that almost 50% of Amdocs India employees would be knowing me, it will be hard to thank them all here... So people I am happy that I met you people...
Here... Today is the day when I stood still and thought What I have achieved in last one year.. I have achieved nothing incredible and nothing astonishing except some more life time experiences and another unsuccessful Story (okay here I have to tell the story to someone... still pending).
So people Now On I don’t want myself to be at same place (not literally) again after one year... I am fed of doing same work with different approach from last four years... I am working on many things at same time. I’ll update you all once I will have something concrete.

Monday, June 15, 2009

Life..Last One Year - In a Nutshell

Sunday June 14, 2009

Hi All… I wrote some part of this post yesterday and some part today… so Publishing it Today….

Today I completed one full year in Pune… a year back on 14th June 2008 I landed on Pune Airport… I shifted from Ahmedabad (Gujarat) to Pune(Maharashtra) for better future and for growth. I was in Ahmedabad for almost 3 long years and I enjoyed my stay there… had some lifetime experiences and learnt many lessons of life. Shifted Jobs and stepped into many roles… one of them was of entrepreneur and it was great experience… Worked with Pulkit and started some ventures, Now I have my experiences and lessons which I learnt and Pulkit is doing really great in his ventures now. I don’t know why but I came back to this rat race, I hope soon I will be able to break these shackles and step out of rat race and pursue my heart… Entrepreneurship is not an easy pie to gulp it tests your nerves and believe me who are rock solid in their ideas and focused only they can survive… people like me come back to this material world as they have some different thinking towards life and they want to do many things in life.. they do day dreaming to achieve what they think.. but are scared of more than one things, they are not cowards but just they can’t live upto their own expectations and can’t stop comparing their life with others.

Someone told me, “You are living for yourself or for others”.. I think we all live for others and for ourselves, thing is we don’t admit… take a test… first rule is you are not going to talk about this to anyone else and you will be Truthful and won’t lie… now stand in front of a mirror….in which you can see yourself from head to toe… stand naked and look directly in eyes and ask questions like what you want from life… it is like kind of self evaluation… don’t be modest… think what you dream of, think what you like to be, think of what luxury you want in life.. and blah blah blah…. You will find your answers… We all live in material world and we want attention from others, we feel confident when people give us such looks, it satisfies our ego !!! and there is no harm in satisfying ourselves.

I have heard people saying, I don’t care how I look and what people think of me. Okay no problem, tell those people to be truthful to themselves only no one else on earth for once and look into mirror. They will also compare… So that is human psyche… not a problem.

So People back to the topic that I have completed my one year in Pune, I shared what I learnt in Ahmedabad, I met many nice people few of them are Pulkit and his family(for which I feel they are my family too), Tushar Anjaria, My first and only Girlfriend who dumped me in less than a year, Raghav, Firoz, Sathish Bhai, Imran Bhai, Chintan Vyas, Geetika Garg, I-link people, Vivek Joshi, Jasdeep, Sahil, Gaurav, Hitesh Desai, Ketan Solanki, My sister shifted then there so her family Colonel Uncle, Manish Bhai ( breakfast cab guy outside IIM-A), Ashish Verma (my college time buddy shifted to Ahmedabad)… there are hundreds of more people… I am lucky that I met them there…

That was Ahmedabad as I spent 3 years there… I came to Pune and main reason of coming to Pune was growth and career as well as my Friends who were already in Pune and they told me Pune is really really great place.. last one year was really nice for me… I had my lessons with me so I thought not to repeat my mistakes so I was extra cautious on professional as well as on personal (remember I was already dumped) front… I thought to concentrate only on work and do nothing else.. first few months I enjoyed a lot as when I shifted to Pune that time it was monsoon season and my friend vikas was pioneer of one Biking Group Bladerunnerzzz and I joined him on one ride… and it was great experience altogether.

By the time I shifted Pune it was like recession started… or say it was coming in front with full swing and impact was seen …. Then soon Lehman Brothers Collapse and other things one after another….Mean time I was also going through one complete culture change as I had spent 3 years in Ahmedabad and in Ahmedabad it is conservative culture where as in Pune it is altogether Fun and Open culture… I tried to restrict myself and was successful in that….Okay as per some previous posts it shows that I was passing through some turbulence but it was just a turbulence not my destination.

Then came the Recession Blow on me… I was asked to perform in my current role else go home… It was like question on my authority and my work… I knew I was not bad at work but due to some reason, some people put me on back foot. I took it as challenge and thought if ever I have to leave then I will first prove them that I was not wrong, my performance was not bad.. it was a poor management of resources and lack of knowledge in specific field in which I work. So I worked hard (yes hard coz if I had worked smart then there will never be a situation to work hard)… and sustained the recession blow… and continuing with my organization…

That time I learnt my corporate lessons and now implementing in current project and role… That time I got calls from other companies as well but I thought to stay with current organization for little long as I don’t have reason to change my job again…

Tomorrow on June 16, 2009 I will complete my 1 year in my current organization… okay logically I have completed but I joined my current organization on June 16, 2008.

I don't know how much I am successful to make my future better, I believe I will stay as is until I come out of rat race... I Came from Ahmedabad to Pune for better future.. initial days I felt i did a terrible mistake as I stayed in Ahmedabad for 3 years and I was attached to the city and people out there imotionally and I felt Nostalgic for initial few months.. I am lucky that I have friends here so they were here with me for my change...Change is Inevitable and Change makes you strong and helps you in Growing Up. Hope I will stay Little Longer in this Beautiful City

I wish myself all the best for my work and my Job… Wish me people that I give always an honest efforts in what I do !!!

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Swine Flu H1N1

I have read So Much about Swine Flu H1N1 so that I am now scared of even eating chicken. What just happened to the world, before it was bird flu... and many more diseases which were not heard in last 20 years.. I mean pork was eaten not in reccent time it is been eaten from decades but 20 years back there were no such issues. Same thing for chicken

Are these all things are it some kind of Sign or some kind of wake up call or some warning from Nature to all that wake up you are exhausting natural resources and destroying Nature.

Global Warming is the major issue and people like me and hundreds other read about it blog about it and at some extent follow to control this. My Take on this all Natural disasters and resources scarcity is Population..Think of all the problem and differentiate the problem to the smallest unit possible and you will find same thing in the end and it is population.

What we are doing to control this... Nothing !!!!. Why am writing this now... In my previous posts I was discussing about me, myself, what i feel on personal and my personal life... Today is Saturday Morning and I just read one News on Swine Flu and in Hyderabad now onw 6 year old girl is the victim, that is height!!!

On twitter we were just discussing this with some light twittes and someone just said she will hate coming out in public wearing some masks al the time... I just replied to her that as she is a designer and NIFT graduate, I can see the market for designer masks and she wrote one Blog Entry on this on her website !!!

Though all it was in light mood but it made me think again where we are and why we are.. so the first two paragraphs are of those thought.

I promise that I will religiously follow the rules and try to help more than a bit to not to add more hazzards to nature.. hope this will be my 10 cents to prevent Global Warming

Friday, June 12, 2009

Which Title !!!!

I came to know that there are some readers of my blog... ok there is one atleast and he gave me some comments..some title :) people says am a good writer... i say am just a learner.. i share what i feel and i try to be honest as much as i can.. i promise not to write lies.

I read one autobiography sometime back...The Story of My Experiments with Truth in his autobiography he wrote truth and only truth... and that man had courage to write such truth...I don't have, but I don't write lies either.

I am reading many books these days and learning the langugage English :) hope some day I will write bit better than today.

Thanks for reading though !!!

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Getting into my senses Slowly but Getting Back

Tuesday June 9, 2009

Getting into my senses back again. Working on my studies and reading Vocab basics now. Got some basic concepts document on Parajumbles from PagalGuy. Hope I remain like this for some long time now so that I can remain focused about what am doing and what I want, Consistency is the key and I have to overcome my laziness and work on weak areas Now!!!!


Tuesday 09th June 9, 2009

Do we agree that fragrances and smells are permanent…like I just bought one deodorant which I used a year back… when I use this and smell it then I can feel the same feeling which I had a year back, that coziness in the air… missing my friend Vikas and the time we enjoyed together….

I believe our mind stores such memories ad give index to them with some specific pointers :P too technical… it is like we remember all good memories with some links and smell senses performs a major role to it like vision. Vision sense is powerful to remember things, I read it somewhere for memory classes and for faster and strong memory they relate things with images and make connections.

Likewise Smell sense comes second in the list, If I have a permanent memory attached to one specific fragrance then it is hard to change it, sometimes it gives nostalgic memory… and yes here fragrance means a pleasant smell which soothes your nerves and relaxes you so that you can think or imagine the past time which you have related to the fragrance.

It is almost monsoon here in Pune and I bought some good deodorants and perfumes from same old shop which vikas showed me Bro’s Shop at M.G. Road  and am enjoy these fragrances with rain and remembering good old days… Feeling nostalgic and lonely but sometimes you enjoy your loneliness… and specially me now befriended my loneliness and we both have good time always…

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Goodbye R.I.P. Rajeev Motwani

I Just read about Rajeev Motwani from Matt Cutts Twitter Update... Yes am following Matt Cutts...

I am sorry that I was not knowing about Rajeev Motwani. I read there few minutes back and found that he was a gem of a person. I think with time and success if a person become humble and know what he came on this planet earth then he/she become one Great Person.

I have seen... read about many successful people and found they are great in many ways.

Today's my learning: Learn from everyday of life and try not be arrogant and try to be humble as possible.