Phew… weekend is over an now am thinking from some time I wait for weekend with that joyous desire and plan lot many things to do over the weekend.. however on Saturday morning while having my breakfast, I was thinking or I felt a kind of loneliness surrounded me. Sometimes I like this and sometimes don’t.
By the day passed I was doing nothing, was thinking what to do ( what I don’t know)…. Spend whole day on my couch having one novel by my side and a movie in a laptop… I didn’t watched the movie and didn’t read the novel... Was lost in my thoughts…. By evening I got one term that also after when my friend call me and asked wass up !! I told him nothing…. I did nothing whole day.
The term is Midlife crisis. On weekends when I feel alone I somehow get depressed and gloomy. Due to this phenomenon last to last weekend (when it was long weekend) I went out of pune to spend some time elsewhere.
I googled the term “Midlife Crisis” and read a bit about it. As per the research it is less seen in Indian and Japanese culture raising the question of whether midlife crises is mainly a cultural construct. Some authors hypothesized that the "culture of youth" in Western societies accounts for the popularity of the midlife crisis concept there.
I guess I feel so because my work culture is western and influence by western societies… in our Indian culture we usually don’t go out for work and stay with family. In western culture people use to go out and stay alone… which makes them more firm and strong… but for that you need really strong will.
I feel low and gloomy these days I think because of the age and some monotonous life culture… office to home and home to office… there is no craze in life… there is no such excitement, which I was feeling few years back… I had that curiosity to know more… I was upfront . Now before doing anything I think beyond that.. which restricts my action… which make me feel I am getting older. Seems midlife crisis came to me a bit early.
As it is said… In your knowledge lies ignorance…
I am in office this is Monday morning and am writing this blog to satisfy my….. what don’t know!!!!
Hope this mid life crisis is just my imagination nothing else… I will pass through soon… There are many things to do and many things to achieve.. I can’t just act like a loose… I mustn’t behave like this…
Some more links for the term... I read more about it